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How long will heaven wait for this version of me
There’s diamonds in my stomach now
But I don’t feel any richer yet
It’s only a matter of time
Before I fall again
Nobody can cut me
Deeper than a past me
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2. |
Wishful Singing
03:40
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There’s no reason I can’t be alright
All my life was fog upon the lake
Nothing but the wind upon my face
Hell down in my heart
Like an orphaned grocery cart
A toilet in the streets
Or a kleenex in the weeds
There’s no reason I can’t be alright
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3. |
I Don't Know Why
04:38
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Time is the axe and sleep is the meal
This isn’t how a life should feel
I don’t know why the days keep slowing
I don’t know why my stomach is glowing
Prison is within your best intentions
And whatever betrays your attention
I don’t know why the floor keeps falling
I don’t know why my grave is calling
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Evil
04:27
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Evil is emptying your fridge
Poisoning your lips
Checking the mail without a smile at all
With blood on your hips and the moon standing tall
You learn how to swim as wet as you fall
Standing sexless on a bridge
Straddling the ridge
Inhaling the ships with every inch of your frame
A breath in a breath and my lungs fill with shame
It’s Monday again and I feel the same
You learn how to swim and then how to blame
How could anybody love anybody’s love
Without some lust in their terrestrial eyes
Without some dust beneath their bedridden sighs
Without a ship and a couple of guys
The wind at bay without our sales on the rise
Until one day when you decide otherwise
I’d better swim as fast as I can
The night is as cold as I am afraid
Then out of my blue
That’s when I saw you
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5. |
Broken Mirror
04:10
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I see you gazing in the mirror
Looking lighter than you should be
You’ve been gone for several weeks now
And I’ve been living in the darkness
There’s not a smile that could rock me
So shut your own mouth and let me speak
The silence suits you when you let it
You will not hear yourself today
You are the worst of your misgivings
A cut-rate, minor insurrection
And that’s exactly why you need me
I feel the room begin to tighten
As violence creeps in through the air ducts
There’s so much more I need to tell you
So put that fist back in your own mouth
You are the worst of your misgivings
A cut-rate, minor insurrection
The silence suits you when you let it
You’ll never hear yourself again
You’ll never hold the world in rapture
You’ll never be a loving brother
You think your words have any power?
Let’s see them desecrate the mirror
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6. |
Swampwalk
01:39
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Made Of
03:51
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Whatever I’m made of
It’s not from the same stuff that I was last year
I’m feeling melted
And rather hell-fed
Tired of waiting for the sleep that blows me out
Whatever I’m made from
I think I need more of for the game ahead
I feel like a net without the holes
A shaky bet between the poles
At the very least a threat to my own goals
Whatever I’m made of
There’s got to be some love or the whistle blows
Now I’m killing my time down in the mine
Drilling a hole for light to find
Whatever I’m made of
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8. |
My Slow Assassin
03:16
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My slow assassin
Losing money, hair and hope
If I could go then I would go
Live in the now for now
I suppose
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9. |
Better
03:49
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Catching wind of nothing learned
When you catch a breath you’ve lost before
There’s nowhere left for lungs to run
When you live among no lessons in a lifeless corridor
I was born on broken stairs
Raised to lower expectations
The easiest one to disappoint
Is the one you wish you were
With a little patience I could be better
The mind is but an empty pit
The wind turned upside down with locks on it
A fire that burns until it’s lit
And you don’t know what to cook with it
Every day I’m wrestling
With every night I’m rustling
I might sleep but never rest
Keep my dreams pinned to my chest where they belong
With a little patience I could be better
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No Reason
05:04
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I wake up in the basement sometimes
Though we live up on the second and third floor
I’ve got no reason to be anywhere
And so I’m not
I jerk off in my girlfriend’s sweatpants
And wonder is this the end of romance
I’ve got no reason to be anything
And so I’m not
But I reach out with a heart full of music
The only semblance of my usefulness
My arms come back from the void blackened, cold and annoyed
Feeling desperate within but vague on the outside
Then one day it all makes sense maybe
That’s been my plea to the future lately
There’s no reason
I can’t be
Alright
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11. |
Wet Cement
05:08
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I miss the car and not knowing who you are
When you split my eye and knowing that I could die
When they swabbed my cheek outside the restaurant
None of it seemed like anything that I could want again
Wet Cement
Last year I sent a story to the CBC
It was called “The Letter From My Kidnapper”
But then I lost my hard drive and I guess I lost the contest too
Because both of us are nowhere to be found but in my head
Wet Cement
I spent all this money, time and energy
Just to miss the car and how I used to be
So I made a timeshare out of a memory
It’s nice to have at least one thing that’s clear to me
Wet cement
Wet cement up in my mind
Wet cement
The only footprints I can find
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12. |
Sent For Flowers
03:28
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First I walked toward the dog park
And sat alone with all these demos
There’s no such thing as running
Until you see them in the snow
Then I spent an hour with the flowers
Until I think I got it right
Another hour at the counter
After the clerk had said goodbye
It’s always time to go home
It’s always time to go
It’s always time
I stepped up to the rail tracks
A bag of tulips in one hand
My coffee in the other
And a day divorced of plans
It was noon behind the warehouse
But it was midnight on my lips
And I may have kissed the train
If I didn’t have to piss
It’s always time to go home
It’s always time to go
It’s always time
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13. |
Sad But Excited
03:03
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Will I ever amount to
Driving by in a cloud of Hawaii and tunes
In the same lifetime
That you’ve described without speaking
As what else would there be to do?
You’ve been surfing the sunsets
And singing to cigarettes
No man is an island but we
And had we locked eyes
I would not be surprised
If no wave crashed into the shoreline
Sad but excited
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14. |
Red Light
04:01
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We don’t even talk now
But that’s not the reason
I drive with my eyes closed
And you still curse the seasons
I’m not at the apartment
But that’s not the reason
It’s because we’re different people
And I don’t need a reason
I don’t know where to go now
Never knew before you
I’ll never know again
There’s no me to tell me where
But that’s when I see him
Digging through the trash
I feel the light go green
And I am free at last
We don’t need to talk now
But that’s not the reason
I dig with my eyes closed
And you just let the breeze in
Back at the apartment
Before I put the keys in
I try to taste the air for
Any sign of treason
I’m racing up the stairs
And even though it’s freezing
I tear off all my layers
And start with just my feet in
You have to over sit
before you understand
You are digging through the trash
You are driving through the past
When I feel the light go green
I know I’m free at last
When I feel the light go green
Then I know we’re free at last
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15. |
Myself Then
05:05
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I didn’t know myself then
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